Sunday, February 7, 2010

Work related

1945 hrs. Sunday. Alta Royal Oaks Apartment

I've been here in Houston,TX for a week now and I can hardly believe it that I am actually here. My whole life before this, I've never traveled out of Malaysia before, except Malaysia-Thailand border. I never imagined that I will travel half-way around the world and be here.

Onboard Processing Geophysicist

This is the tittle of my job. The tittle sounds a little fancy if you ask me. But it is exactly what I do.

I have a Bachelor Degree in Science majoring in Applied Physics. My results are not excellent but hey! I graduated right? and it's not easy. Most importantly I have Allah to be thankful to because I feel as if He planned all of this for me. Life is very unpredictable and this is so true.

When I was still in High School, I always thought that I am going to be a doctor or a dentist.
When I started my 1st year in UM, I took Geology as my major, but then I changed to Applied Physics because Physics is kinda cool. Do I regret it???

Well, in terms of difficulties Applied Physics is very difficult for me. You have maths, engineering, computer and theoretical physics all in one. I used to have some regrets especially when the exams are near, but there are no regrets now. I have a wonderful career ahead of me. This is almost like a dream job and it found me. I feel like I am supposed to this, it feels so right.So me.

But I have some doubts too. For example if I got married and have babies I'm not sure how my family life can fit into this. Maybe I have to postpone having babies....maybe I have to concentrate on my career first. I'm not even sure if my boyfriend will stick with me. Even though he said he understands because he went offshore before but I'm not sure. Our relationship seems to have lots of blind spots nowadays. Maybe it's him, maybe it's me, I don't know. The way he acted, I'm not sure whether he cares for me or not. I'm not sure whether he reads this post. I think he forgets he has a girlfriend. Well, it has been three years, maybe he's bored.

Right now I don't feel like I want to give a damn. I just want to concentrate on my career.
Maybe I'm overreacting. I don't know. We'll just see where this goes okay?