Saturday, July 31, 2010

Next step in life

It's 1st August 2010. It's been such a long time since I last wrote here. My life has been very exciting. The year 2010 has been really kind to me, which I have only Allah to be grateful for. Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah for everything that you have given me.

Many things happened to me, I really don't know where to start. From my previous post, I elaborate (sort of) on my career which gives me the opportunity to travel halfway around the world all the way to Texas. Not only that, a few months back, I have my very own EuroTrip. I was in Scotland for a week for a Sea Survival training required for my job, after completing the training, I went to London and Paris. It was a very valuable experience to me. Seeing new cities, different sights and smell. When I was there, I feel so alive, so free that I feel that there's no other place I wanna be at that time. I feel so independent and so confident. The experience is one thing, but 'the feeling' is what I treasured most because the feeling is amazing.

Other than the EuroTrip, since I have a career, it means I have my own money. I think it's a very good thing to have my own money and not depending 100% on my parents anymore. I can see my parents are nicer to me now, can you believe that? I guess they respect me more now maybe because they believe I'm capable of deciding my own life and now I'm all grown up.

But still I don't really see eye-to-eye with my father. I think he made a lot of mistakes in his life and now he's kinda trying to stop me from making any mistakes. I think since it's my life, it's up to me to make my own mistakes, parents shouldn't live their lives through us, they should concentrate with their own life. As for their children, the best they can do is prepare them with good upbringing, education, etc. Well sorry father, you know I'm as headstrong as you, I'm sorry but I can't let you live my life for me, I know it's difficult to let go of your daughter, but you know this moment will come right? you can't hold on to me forever. I hope you understand.

In the love department, I think I'm doing quite well. Almost 4years now. It's not always easy. We have our ups and downs. We've reached each other breaking point but then we decided to restart/format the whole system and we've been doing quite well ever since. I hope we can really take the relationship to the next level in the near future. InsyaAllah. Amin. I hope Allah blessed our love and will guide us all the way.

Other than that, I won't be celebrating Ramadhan and EidulFitri in Malaysia. I will be somewhere else across the Universe :) because I will start my rotation soon. I hope I will have the strength and patience to go through all this. It's my first time celebrating this two wonderful months out of Malaysia. I'm looking forward towards it though because this will be a great experience for me. I'm sure I won't forget it anytime soon.

That's it for now. Wish me luck. Because I really2 need it and I hope 2010 keeps rocking and 2011 will be even better.

Roger and out.

.Miss loveable. :)

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Work related

1945 hrs. Sunday. Alta Royal Oaks Apartment

I've been here in Houston,TX for a week now and I can hardly believe it that I am actually here. My whole life before this, I've never traveled out of Malaysia before, except Malaysia-Thailand border. I never imagined that I will travel half-way around the world and be here.

Onboard Processing Geophysicist

This is the tittle of my job. The tittle sounds a little fancy if you ask me. But it is exactly what I do.

I have a Bachelor Degree in Science majoring in Applied Physics. My results are not excellent but hey! I graduated right? and it's not easy. Most importantly I have Allah to be thankful to because I feel as if He planned all of this for me. Life is very unpredictable and this is so true.

When I was still in High School, I always thought that I am going to be a doctor or a dentist.
When I started my 1st year in UM, I took Geology as my major, but then I changed to Applied Physics because Physics is kinda cool. Do I regret it???

Well, in terms of difficulties Applied Physics is very difficult for me. You have maths, engineering, computer and theoretical physics all in one. I used to have some regrets especially when the exams are near, but there are no regrets now. I have a wonderful career ahead of me. This is almost like a dream job and it found me. I feel like I am supposed to this, it feels so right.So me.

But I have some doubts too. For example if I got married and have babies I'm not sure how my family life can fit into this. Maybe I have to postpone having babies....maybe I have to concentrate on my career first. I'm not even sure if my boyfriend will stick with me. Even though he said he understands because he went offshore before but I'm not sure. Our relationship seems to have lots of blind spots nowadays. Maybe it's him, maybe it's me, I don't know. The way he acted, I'm not sure whether he cares for me or not. I'm not sure whether he reads this post. I think he forgets he has a girlfriend. Well, it has been three years, maybe he's bored.

Right now I don't feel like I want to give a damn. I just want to concentrate on my career.
Maybe I'm overreacting. I don't know. We'll just see where this goes okay?

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Running up the hill and the green eyed monster

I really care about my body.I may not be drop-dead gorgeous and I may not have Angelina Jolie's body but I'm very contented with what I have. So, that is why I really love to stay healthy and get fit. Many people said that I'm too vain, maybe...but I have my reasons.

When I stayed fit and healthy, I feel more energetic throughout the day and I'm always in a good mood. My body type retains water and fat easily so I have to work out constantly. Besides, working out has become like a drug to me because if I don't work out, I feel uncomfortable and heavy.

Back then, when I work out, I aimed to be thin. But now I have healthier goals. I aim to be slim by building more lean muscles which can be achieved through Pilates and dumbells. Before this, I diet by eating less and concentrate on Cardiovascular exercises such as running and jogging. Yup, I lost the weight, but I also became quite skinny and flat.

I believe women should have some meat on, so after doing some research and taking tips from health magazine, I found out certain exercise can help you to have a nice booty like Beyonce even if your booty is flat and can even firm up boobs and make it to appear 'nicer'. For example Nicole Scherzinger. The tip to this is to do some strength-training with a dumbells, resistance band, fitness ball etc concentrating on certain muscles on the body. I suggest reading the link I provided below because I find it to be really useful. I tried it and I can already feel the results.

So, to really have the body you want. There are 3 main steps involves.

1) Cardiovascular exercise like running, swimming, aerobics classes(to shed that extra fat)

2) Strength/Weight training to sculpt your body and build muscles ( muscles burn more fat)

3) Healthier diet. Don't diet by not eating. That's more dangerous because your metabolism will
slow-down. Eat healthy snacks every two-hours, like apples, yogurt....(oreo is a no-no) to
increase your metabolism and do not eat anything after 7-8pm( this is quite difficult for me because I love to grab at bite late at night, but I'm trying my best to do this). Don't forget to drink lots of water.

So, since I 'menganggur' a very long time at home with nothing to do, I have all the time in world to 'jaga badan'. I experimented with many kinds of exercise so that I am not bored. Sometimes when it's raining and I can't jog, I replace jogging/running with skipping or sometimes I even borrowed my sister's roller-blades. If I'm bored with all the exercises, I just turned the music really loud(on the mp3 player) and started dancing and jumping like crazy alone in the bedroom in front of the mirror while holding the dumbells. I think it's a good work out for me and it's fun. I also tried all the Pussycat Dolls and Shakira dance routine.
I may not be very successful at it but I have lots of fun and I sweat!!

Right now, my favourite exercise is to run up a very, very steep hill. If drive manual car pun kena tukar ke gear 1. It is very difficult, I feel like my chest will explode and I am out of breath. My stamina is quite good, so I force myself to do as many as I can. When I'm at the top, I will go down, and run up again. I love it because I can feel the muscles at my thighs and butt working really hard, even the muscles at my abs.

Don't expect me to have a Beyonce's body yet, yeah. Because I also lapsed sometimes. I still like my bread and creamy butter, I still eat junk food like super ring, I like burgers and nasi lemak. I haven't give up on that yet. But I tried to eat in moderation.....but sometimes fail because that day I ate 2 nasi lemak kukus bought at the pasar malam. There goes my running. sia-sia je. Hehe.

We all have our weak points right? But I'm trying my best to curb my hearty appetite.

Warning: For those who just started exercise, beware, you will become really hungry and
feel like can swallow a cow whole at the beginning

When I first started my strength training, I give in to my appetite and I end up gaining more weight and become quite bloated. I thought if I do lots of exercise, then I'm free to eat as much as I can, Guess what, I am so dead wrong. I end up heavier than before I started the weight/strength training.

But now I understand my body better. I eat in moderation now. Instead of eating 6-8 pieces of bread, I reduced it to 2-3 pieces. When I'm hungry late at night, I munch in apples, sengkuang(good for the skin), raisins and drink warm milk. Usually I do not eat rice, in a week, makan sekali seminggu pun susah, but since I started exercising seriously and almost every day. (6-7 times a week), I eat rice everyday, at least once daily because I need the energy to run, If I don't fuel my body, how can I run right? But just remember to eat moderately.

Honestly, I can feel and see the difference of my body. I feel stronger, happier, and I can still fit my old pants 8-10 years ago. I am not stick thin, don't get me wrong. But I'm slimmer with body fats and meat at all the right places ( almost!) Yea girls, I do the butt workout exercise, some shoulder press and arms workout. But nobody's perfect right? I still have some problematic area on my body and I'm working on it.

Anyway, I'm quite scared right now, because I will start working by 1st feb and I'm scared I have no time to exercise and I will gain fat/weight. So, one of my new year resolution is to always find time to exercise. Even if there's no time, make time. I hope I can keep to this.

Besides, there's some alterations in my future plans, I don't think I will get married this year, and I'm not getting any younger, so I have to maintain my body. I want to be a beautiful bride you see...hehe. Still, even if I'm married with children, I hope I can maintain my body.Besides it's for my husband, dapat pahala kan? I hope I can be like Heidi, even pregnant 4 times, post-pregnancy body mmg wow!! lucky Seal. We can dream big right? But I believe when there's will, there's a way. I just want to be fit and healthy so that maybe in the future I can even go jogging with my teenage sons and daughters. Yea, yea.... dreams...

The reasons I write this post is I want to share my exercise journey. I envy the naturally slim, skinny, thin girls but not anymore. I used to envy those who eats a lot but does not gain weight. I am a horrible green eyed monster. But I found out and I want to prove to everyone that even though I gain weight easily, with the right exercise and nutrition, I can still be slim and slightly voluptuous. People comment on my weight all the time because it fluctuates, and it became really painful when the "oh, you gain weight, " came from thin, skinny girls, who claimed they can't put on weight even though they tried everything. Not to mention the skinny girls are now happily married, or just gave birth a month ago and they're still thinner than you....... I have the right to be jealous right? But honestly, I don't blame them( there are a few girls in this group that I met that gave the exactly same comment) because I think maybe they all meant well or they are just trying to joke around. I just have to work on my insecurities. At least good things came from all of that, because it motivates me to take exercise seriously and look at me now... I may not be the next Victoria's Secret Model but I am fit and healthier than ever.

So that's it. Maybe some of you will roll your eyes reading my post but this is me and this is a part of myself, whether you like it or not.

Before I end, I would like to thank Dima Marlina because she gives me lots of advice on strength/weight training and tell me the importance of it to tone the body.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Hello, hello 2010

Hello, hello. What a great way to start the new year. I finally have my own blog on blogspot....yeay!! Two thumbs up to myself.

2010 is a very important year to me. Year 2009 is one of the hardest, toughest and the most boring year of all. True I graduated, but after graduation, I become a jobless graduate...the thing that kept me sane is my sis because she gives me the satisfaction to bully her and boss her around. I've stayed in KL for 2++ months after graduation I think, but it turned bad...all the family dramas.... I won't disclose the details here; my only advice to Muslim men out there is, if you plan to have more than one wife (polygamy), think again!! It may be fun at first, with all the sex with the young wife but think about the responsibilities. It's not as easy as you think.

Anyway, other than the family dramas, my social life is non-existence. I stayed at home. I don't have many friends to start with and the only friends I have is in KL. I do have friends in Ipoh, my neighbors, primary schoolmates, but mostly they are guys and they hang out at night, so obviously I did not join them. The only time I went out with these people is to watch Storm Warriors, luckily I'm not the only girl there or it will be really weird.

The other reason that I was really bored is that I don't have any transport. After graduation, I have to return my beloved scooty to his owner. So, if I want to go anywhere, I have to borrow my mum's car or by not-so-efficient-Ipoh-public-bas. Usually I take the bus because my mum does not really trust me with her car except to go to pasar malam or the market where I will drive the car and go there with the maid and my sis.

The only good thing about my "tempoh menganggur" is that I learnt to cook. I am quite proud with my achievements in this area. I can know cook all sorts of cooking with sambal, sambal tempe, sambal udang and petai, 3 days ago I experiment and for the first time ever " buat padprik ayam"..... I am also good at making nasi minyak and ayam masak merah, I can now do ayam goreng berempah, got the recipe from Hafiz, only on 2009 I actually tried it. Not bad for a beginner right?

It is very important for me to learn how to cook because my father pressured and threaten me that if I don't learn to cook and if I get married, my husband will cheat on me with other women who are better cooks. Reality check: Not all men are like you daddy!!!

Still, I learnt to cook not because I'm afraid my husband will cheat on me, but just to prove to daddy dearest that I can do it and I came to love cooking. It's not that difficult. Everyone can cook just like what Chef Gusteau said in Ratatouille.

So, I'm signing out for now. I'm sure I'll submit more post that I have a blog now....